I am totally having mommy guilt about oversharing yesterday. Think of it as drinking too much and being embarrassed the next day about what you said and did. We’ve all been there. At least I know I have! (One too many times) Except yesterday I wasn’t drinking. I was just plain, old sad. And worn down. And needed help. A good night’s sleep reminded me that life could be a lot worse.
If I was to sum up Cooper’s behaviors I can link every single one to lack of communication. He can’t say what he wants and needs and therefore feels like we don’t understand him. Which, half the time we don’t. And his brain is growing fast. I can see that and the lack of language is really becoming apparent.
But, in saying all that, Cooper is a really, really great kid. If I was to add them up I bet I got 50 hugs and kisses yesterday. Big sloppy all of over your face kisses and tight bear hugs. Thank you god for this. It makes the hard times more bearable.
Coops and I played trains last night and you know what…HE LOVED IT. It’s like he forgot about how much he loved it. We made tunnels and built tracks. It was fantastic. I actually missed it.
Last night was Jamie’s turn to put Super Cooper to bed. I walked back to Cooper’s room to drop of one of his 3 blankies that he has to sleep with. Ever so sweetly, Cooper grabbed Jamie’s hand and walked him to the door and gave him a little shove. And then ran up to me with the biggest grin and knocked me on the bed with a snuggle. Then signed, ‘read, please.’ And just like that, I was a goner. Thank you God for this baby.
So here are my plans…
I have to accept that until Cooper can communicate (however that may be) life is going to be more challenging.
I have to start accepting that my son is different.
I MUST cut back on technology for Cooper. His brain can’t handle it right now.
Jamie and I have to start doing more self care. More time away from the house. More ‘me’ time as they say.
And lastly, I need to SUCK IT UP. This is our life, our kid and we need to be advocates. No more crying over coulda, woulda shoulda.
Happy Monday all. It’s a new day and spring is on the horizon!