Something has changed with Cooper. Even as I type this I am hesitant. I haven’t even said it out loud to anyone but Jamie. I’m scared if I say it too loudly it will disappear. So let’s pretend I am whispering.
Last Friday we stopped giving Cooper his daily dose of Miralax. This was a huge step for him and we thought for sure it wouldn’t work. But it’s been over a week now and he is doing great. Thank God. We also started Cooper on a new dose of Fish Oil last week as well. There has been excellent research about fish oil and apraxia. Click HERE to read about it.
In the last week he has been a new kid. Maybe it’s just a coincidence. Maybe he’s growing up. Maybe I don’t care what the reason is as long as it stays good.
First, he is ‘chatting’ constantly. He hasn’t stopped making noise in over a week. Still no consonants or words but holy chatter box. He vocalizes everything. It’s been so fun to hear his little voice.
Secondly, his whole attitude has changed considerably. He is playing better, transitioning well, sleeping amazing, eating well, etc. This morning when he woke up instead of going for the cartoons he sat at his table in his room and read. For 30 minutes. Now, this kid is 3. And a boy. 30 minutes to Cooper normally equals 30 days. I kept checking on him to make sure he was ok.
Other things as well. He is more social than ever. We had a guy friend over to look at our furnace and Cooper grabbed his favorite Thomas Book and brought it right over to him to read. It was pretty dang cute.
And lastly, and most importantly, I was able to take pictures of the boys together. For some reason, for the first year of Sawyer’s life, Cooper would never let me take pictures of them together. I don’t know why. Maybe jealousy…I don’t know. But last week he let me snap a bunch of them together. And this mama took a million! Look at Sawyer’s face. OMG! So cute!
I am so scared that this is going to disappear. I’m scared that I am going to let my guard down and BAM it’s going to get hard again. And I know I can’t live in fear. I just need to soak it up!
I think that’s the main reason why I am so scared about this meeting with the psychologist on Wednesday. I don’t want to hear bad news. Not that any mother ever would but it just seems like he is improving every single day. I don’t need anything to bring me down.